Angry, upset and truly felt sorry to all the crew and crowds from the concert!
I could hardly sleep after the 1st night of the concert...Why?
My worries and stress are unexplainable! Due to my condition, I was so worried with what was going to happen to my 2nd night performance! To what extent can I endure the pain? How far can I go? Will it affect the crowds and atmosphere of the whole concert?
Actually, my Company did asked me if I wanted to stay backstage during songs which requires dance moves...Well, I was quite confused that time! I was worried coz I thought many of you might still wanna see me even if I just stood and sing but what worries me was if that's the case, is the atmosphere going to be different? Well, when I was just standing alone at the stairways singing by myself while others were dancing and walking along the stretched 'Catwalk' area, I felt so depressed... The hurt wasn't from my injured feet, it came from my heart! It was indeed hurtful... I wasn't able to do what I wanted to do and my focus was just not there throughout the whole concert... I told myself NEVER in my life will I want to have this kind of feeling again!!!
During the concert, I could see many heartfelt emotions from all of you and even those who continuously cheered for me so as to give me courage and power to keep on going... In my blog, I could see the concerns from all of you and I am so grateful about it. Sigh... maybe I was being too emotional that time which made me broke into tears! I guess that was one of the worst experiences which made me felt so weak and helpless!
Someone said to me, "What happened, has happened. We can't change what has happened but we can make things better. Whether you like it or not, you are already injured. You can be a happy injured man who makes the best out of things or an injured man who sulks and keeps wondering why it has to happen to him. Right?"
Yes, I will try my best to be a happy injured man :-)
This is a challenge I need to face because I still have a long journey ahead...there are still many things which I wanna learn and share with you guys! So thankful to all of you...Thank you!
Quote from Lance Armstrong: -
"Pain is temporary, it may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever."
You know what... I'm gonna FIGHT and let's see who is STRONGER!!!!!!!